You mock other people when you see it happen to them. You pity them, the fools that they are, to think that something like that is actually real, that they will be happy from it. You swear to yourself that it will never happen to you, not in a million years. You will never be one of those blubbering fools, you will not be that stupid, you won't ever go down that road, because you know where it leads, and you know you don't want to go there.
The path is not straight. There is no straight path. Maybe in the land of make-believe, but here in reality, the path is crooked as sin, and it is up to us humans to stumble along, in the dark, and try to figure it out.
But what if you can't? What if you are leaning so far over the water, and you can't return to dry land? What if there's a branch hanging down, but it is just out of your reach? Nothing can save you now.
What if you used to have it right, it was all so clear, but then your vision blurred? Society mocked you. You changed your mind. No, it just changed of it's own accord, gradually, you never even realized it was happening.
In the end of the day, it is no one's fault but your own. There are never enough excuses you can give, nothing that will defend your actions, or condone them.
In the beginning of the day, what are you supposed to do about it?
You can be smart, you can be logical, you can be analytical, or all three- and there is no way it's gonna help you in the long run.
Was this inspired by (the comments on) TRS' post?
ReplyDeleteIf so...
i gtg to school.
no, not at all. what connection do you see?
ReplyDeletewhy do u have to go to school?
no this was inspired by my life. ugh
ReplyDeleteSympathy is going across the internet wire(less)s.
ReplyDeleteI saw a connection to the bit "but thats what it is when you say live and let live. not necessarily do u think you are right and he is right. most of the time you will swear that you are right, and he has no idea what he is talking abt. but for the sake of peace and love you will keep your mouth shut and let him think what he wants."
I havta go to school coz I live in Australia, it was 8.20 when I typed that and school starts at 8.30. Plus the walk takes 7 mins and I wasn't ready to go yet.
I was late to school.
But, I disagree with what you say, I think you can always get back on track, no matter what happens. And, I think, if you're smart, it can help you in the long run, but support helps more.
so you are giving me support? thank you.
ReplyDeletei know u can always get back on track. but it wont be the same track on which u started. and maybe that is better. i dont know.
u live in austerlia? very cool. sorry my blog made u late to school :P
what's that pisgam...something about complete tzadikim can't stand where ba'alei teshuvah stand, and that doesn't mean that you have to go off so you can come back and be better than you were, just that you can come closer (that's also teshuvah) and then you'll be higher, yeridah letzorech aliyah etc.
ReplyDeleteyes it's very cool! actually today it's been pouring like crazy and i'm going to a friend who lives like 15 minutes away so it better clear up soon...
:D i'm usually late to school
true. but not necessarily do people go off on purpose. it just happens.
ReplyDeletei love the rain. i wish we would have some here. but i hope it clears up for your sake.
lol. sounds like me. time to become a better student.
why dont u write a blog btw?
ReplyDeletehowever i've seen that there's always warning signs, so it can be stopped, it's not just wake up one day & frei.
ReplyDeletethe rain cleared up! my friend and i went out for pizza with some other ppl, it was great. yes. time to hbecome a better student.
um...i don't have time, i'm not sure if i have enough to say and some of the people who would read it are just weird :D. maybe one day.
plus for example, i'm going through some hard stuff now, and if i were to post about it, like you do, it would make me totally depressed. i try b positive.
u are right. it happens gradually. but still, u never really see it coming till it happens.
ReplyDeleteyay! im happy it stopped raining and u got to have fun with friends. i guess my praying helped!
well thats a good thing on your part to try to be positive. but for me it helps me work out a situation to write abt it. doesnt make me more depressed, and doesnt alwawys give me a solution, but sometimes i feel better, especially if i know there are others going through it too.
Smarts, analytical skills, and logical can all help in the long run...even when I do something stupid, I can use the above three to take a step back and make a smart decision...I can take a step back and decide if I should stick with what I did, or do something else...
ReplyDeleteCase in point: At 11:30 last night...my mother told me to "make a u-ey" in the driveway". Since we have a rather wide driveway, I didn't think much of it....as I pulled in, I realized that there was no way I'd be able to make a u-turn...and she started screaming at me that I'd been stupid...and why did I do that....
I told her I was following instructions, and that I realized that I couldn't follow them. Turns out that she'd meant for me to pull in, and then pull out facing the other way. Well, that's no u-ey. So...why didn't she say so?! Anyways, she's ranting about how stupid I am...it's dark...I don't want to bump anything...and I can either be stupid and let her take over- which is stupid considering her anger and nerves, because she'd scream and possibly not pay attention...and one or both of us would bump something by opening the door, etc...or I can figure out a way to get out.
It took me five or six minutes to make an odd version of the three-point turn...but logically, I knew I could do it (small streets are narrower, usually, than my driveway), and I knew that backing up would be stupid, since I couldn't see anything behind me. So...I did the best possible, logical thing...and got out, with the only "damage" done being a slightly tipped garbage can. (See, Ma, I did the 'stupidest driving move ever', and we're fine!)
While I don't think that it's a similar case...it is a case of pure stupidity on at least one person's part (and it was the first case of stupidity that I thought of). Fact is, though, that a little thinking got me out of it..as it got me out of a few other things, as well. More personal examples I do have...but I won't post them in a comment. As long as you find the strength to think and follow through, you'll be able to do just about anything.
chani- seems like u were dying to tell that story. and no, i dont think what you did was stupid, i think you were trying to follow instructions to the best of your ability, but it didnt work.
ReplyDeleteso your point is that even if stupidity is involved, you can step back, reevaluate, and do the 1st 3 i mentioned?
btw, i didnt mention stupid in any of this. so... are you calling what i did stupid?
and this: 'As long as you find the strength to think and follow through, you'll be able to do just about anything.'
I sense you hinting at something...
when did u post this comment? i went to sleep at 6.
lol, i was...how could you tell? thanks...know that my mother disagrees.....thanks for the vote of confidence, tho.
ReplyDeletecorrect...but not always is stupidity involved in this.
lol...no, im not calling it stupid...stupid was my invention.
perhaps i am, perhaps im not.
i posted it around nine or ten in the morning. i slept for four hours, till someone did me a favor by waking up. ;)
I don't think it was stupidity. Maybe a lack of good judgment.
ReplyDeleteAnd you will forever be grateful for that favor...