Scared of how people will judge me,
but more scared of myself.
Scared of what I do,
but scared of what I don't do.
Scared to try,
and scared of failure.
Scared of looking in the mirror,
and not liking what I see.
Scared of disappointing friends,
having them lose faith in me.
Scared of letting myself go,
and finding out how far I could.
Scared of holding back,
and never really experiencing.
Scared of having fun,
but then realizing regrets.
Scared of going far,
and finding out I can never turn back.
But then again...
If I never try,
I'll never know.
If I never do,
I'll never feel.
So forget about people.
Forget about failure.
Forget about the mirror.
Forget about holding back.
Forget about regrets.
Forget about turning back.
If not now, when? Go, do, learn, try, experience, experiment, have fun, let loose, live, be yourself.
Because if not, you'll always regret it, and be left wondering, what if?
and so you posted anyways.....wink wink....
ReplyDeletewhat if what?
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ReplyDeleteYeah, just go for it.
ReplyDeleteWhat if.... And so....
ReplyDeleteThing is, that not always is the issue "letting loose". Sometimes it's a more critical one.
But good for you. :) Really, truly.
P.S.- nice poem
trs- what if i never did any of the things i did, and wondered wut it was like, and if i was missing out? use ur imagination.
ReplyDeletee- thanks, i already did. hence, this post.
soooooooooooooo wat u did should i do also (im kidding) but somthings u cant realy expierence until a certain time so why would u want to ruin the chance of having "fun"
ReplyDeleteso why would u want to ruin the chance of having "fun"
ReplyDeleteSimple. Because G-d said not to.
shaina is agreeing with u. she is saying, why have fun before the right time. good good, u guys are so great. yes, i do agree. be good, dont do drugs, stay in school.
ReplyDeletetrs- why is it always abt g-d?
Why is it always about G-d? Because that's the way he wants it. If you have complaints, direct them to him.
ReplyDeletecomplaints? none. questions? tons.
ReplyDeletewhy is it so easy to love g-d, but so hard to do wut we are told? why are there so many gray areas, so many invisible lines and boundries, so much room for us to go wrong, and we ultimitly do?
u think i want to sin? to defy g-d? to go against his will? no. i love him and wish i could do everything i should, but its hard. so do i really love g-d, or do i love myself? thats the real question.
i love being jewish, religious, lubavitch. id never change that for anything. but it doesnt make it any easier to do thw right thing, especially since theres such a fine line between right and wrong.
so if u went through life till now with not too many sins on your report card, then lots of respect to u, cuz its not easy.
see, there are a lot of questions, and uncertainty, and no answers. and then i ask myself, maybe im overcomplicating things, and its really much simpler than i think? but its so quiet, and i have no answers.
Is it really easy to love G-d?
ReplyDelete(all these questions are why man was put onto earth for seventy or eighty years-laasos lo yisbarech dirah b'tachtonim. If it was easy there wouldn't be any point. As JFK said, "We choose to do this, not because it is easy, but because it is hard."
who said i chose to do this?
ReplyDeletecan u love someone that u cant define? what is love really anyway?
(u seem to be an expert at answering a question with a question.)
this is an argument ive have many times before, with no real answer.
ReplyDeleteits not fair that i didnt have a choice, i shouldnt have to do it if i didnt choose it, i shouldnt get punished for doing wut i want.
learning. ugh. no time.
theres so much pressure from outside forces. i cant listen to E, he's a big hypocrit, and does not practice wut he preaches. i do stuff ( i will not define 'stuff' for u.) and so many ppl have something to say abt it. 'good 4 u' oh no, etc etc bloa bla bla. and i feel like telling them all to keeep wuiet. wut i do is my bussiness and g-ds alone. and u can tell me all u want abt g-d, but really, i need to learn abt him, and accept him myself.
learning. ugh. no time.
ReplyDeletebut really, i need to learn abt him, and accept him myself.
Well, I guess we all just have to live and let live, right?
i.e.: i dont discuss religion, so figure it out urself and dont bother me. classic trs.
ReplyDeletedont ask if u dont want to know.
I merely ask to be sociable.
ReplyDeletei cant believe how u manage to annoy me nut u do every time.
ReplyDeletei dont want ur sympathy, but its 2 am here, im stressed out abt camp, nothing is working, and U ARE NOT HELPING!!!!! cant u be nice or something?
and btw, everything i say abt religioun, im srious, even if u are not. and contrary to wut u say, u CAN discuss religioun, with the right person. i guess that means, anyone but u.
I should be nice? You're the one who told me, and I quote, "well ur social skills suck."
ReplyDeleteWhat do you want my help with exactly? Deep philosophical discussion?
excuse me, thats just me being honest. your social skilld do suck. dont worry, im sure u have a lot of other nice qualities.
ReplyDeletei dont want your help. plus, dont offer something u dont really mean
Yup.
ReplyDeleteugh, why do u even bother? new rule: comments shorter than one word will not be acceptable on my blog. this will become effective immediately.
ReplyDeletehow r u so sure abt everything? how come u dont question? do bad things? care wut ppl think or say? sin? are u a freaking angel???
how r u so sure abt everything? how come u dont question? do bad things? care wut ppl think or say? sin?
ReplyDeleteAnd you think I do none of these because why?
because thats what u make it seem. every time i blog abt g-d, struggles, or wtvr u make it seem like its so simple, and why dont i just GET it??
ReplyDeletei dont know. cuz its easier to assume that everyone has it easier than u do. cuz life is so confusing, and it would be nice to know that some ppl actually haave some things downpat and clear. that there is hope for the rest of us.
You're not gonna like my answer, but I'll give it anyway, because it's 5:05 AM and I have to go to sleep.
ReplyDelete"As you get older things settle into place."
See, I knew you wouldn't like it.
ah, but u dont know me at all....
ReplyDeleteok i dont like it! i hate when ppl try to sound older and wiser than me. it makes me feel like a little kid, and im not. ok.
i know u are right, but, how long does it take?? the wait is killing me. and wut are u supposed to do along the way? ugh i hate this part of growing up.
i know u are right, but, how long does it take?? the wait is killing me. and wut are u supposed to do along the way? ugh i hate this part of growing up.
ReplyDeleteHey, everybody went through it (or is still going through it). In fact, everyone is still going through it. I may be 22, but I'm a pisher just like you. All right, I may have three more years of pishing tucked under my belt, but...
Point is, it's life.
lol. thank you, that makes me feel better.
ReplyDeletesee, u DO know how to be nice. u just need some practice. good job
Well, I haven't been online since Thursday, and I missed a lot of action!
ReplyDelete1. How am I a hypocrite? My actions aren't fully in line with my ideals, but at least I'm working towards making them more in line. Unlike some other people who say, "I think God wants me to do X, but I'm never gonna do X, and I have no plans of ever trying to do X."
2. Take a deep breath. Calm down. Then read through this conversation, and some other conversations you've had with TRS. He is sometimes smart-alecky. But you are downright insulting.
u are hypocritical in the sense that u do not practice wut u preach. u believe certain things, u behave a certain way, and yet u still question and challange me. no, u dont do everything u believe either. why dont u just take off the kippa? its just for show anyway.
ReplyDeleteI AM NOT INSULTING!!! u just dont get me