The time is just ticking away, and soon it'll be time to say goodbye. To this year, to Israel, to my friends. It feels like everything I do now is a last, and I want to make sure that I have the best last moments.
Last night we had a goodbye party. My dorm counselor wrote this cute thing about how there are different kinds of endings, but every ending is a new beginning. And they wished us luck in our new beginning. I almost cried, because I don't want to leave, I'm not ready yet. One of my friends left last night, and we all said goodbye to her, knowing that I'll see her in a few days in New York. So why was I sad? Because it signifies the end. I hate goodbyes.
How can you say goodbye to one of the most important years in your life? How can you say goodbye to Israel, our land, the holiest land? How can you say goodbye to your friends, these girls that you have spent every waking moment with for the past 10 months? How can you just leave, and say goodbye to all the fun, the laughs shared, the tears cried, the time spent together, the trips, the beach, the parties at 2 am, the fights, the programs, the hateful words, the food, the teachers, the classes, the farbies, b-day parties, and shabbos, and ALL of it.
The answer is, you can't. There's no way to say goodbye. And all of it, the important things, the memories, the pictures, they will all stay in your heart forever. That's the cool thing about memories, they never go away. And the friends, well I know I made lasting friendships this year, and like everyone says, your sem friends are your friends for life. And I hope that it's true.
As I enjoy my last Sunday here, and last Monday, and finally Tuesday, the day I leave, I'll enjoy every moment of it. And yes, I'll cry when I leave, cuz that's what I do, and it's ok to cry.
But if there's one thing I won't do, I won't say goodbye. Yes, maybe I'll verbalize it, but I know that it's really not a goodbye, it's farewell, see you around.
And Israel- I know I'll be back. We always come back.
So, farewell my friends. See you around!
and thats exactly why....chassidim dont say..........
ReplyDeletegoodbyes are not endings or new beginnings, but pauses.......
Ok lets have a moment of silence, for all those times we have to say goodbye.....
ReplyDeleteMoments over. Thanks for your (ahem) lame (your words not mine) comment, chanalia.
I like it, really. A pause, like when we see each other again, we just pick up where we left off. Cool. I think I'll use it.
Like Chanalia, my response is "Chassidim don't say Goodbye"
ReplyDelete'cuz really... we are always connected.
Sorry to burst your bubble, but ever hears of dementia or alzheimers? Heck, most people regularly forget things that happened even if they aren't sick.
ReplyDeleteawww c'mon trs, I'm gonna remember this year. don't try to tell me otherwise
ReplyDeleteOf course you will.
ReplyDeletethank you. dont scare me like that
ReplyDeleteMy point wasn't to scare you, it was merely to point out the fallacy in your words.
ReplyDeleteok so its POSSIBLE to forget, yes. i did realize that even as i wrote it. but if u ever read or saw 'the notebook' u'll know that something thats really important or precious to u you'll never forget.
ReplyDeleteWhich is why it's so painful meeting someone who has alzheimers...
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