Happy fasting

I cry for all the kids in the world who haven't been tucked in at night,
and for the ones who went hungry today, not because it was a fast.

I cry for all the kids who are abused on a day to day basis,
by the very ones who are supposed to nurture them, and show love.

I cry for all the kids who are deprived of the words 'I love you'
and the ones who've never known a loving embrace.

I cry for the kids who cry themselves to sleep at night,
wondering if this was what they were brought down here for,
or if it ever gets better.

And then I drink a beer and drown myself in an alcohol induced stupor.
I go to lala land and everything is good and happy, for the moment at least.
I don't cry anymore, and frankly, I don't care about much.

See, crying needs a reason. 'Strong people don't cry.' That's false. It is the ones who cry who are strong for showing emotion. But still. You can't just cry because you are sad, no. So I cry and think of the neglected children, and the hobo's, and the poor people, and all the people that I read about in books but thank G-d have never met.

And believe me, if I could stomach a beer, I would drink. But I can't, it tastes too gross. And my 2 attempts at getting drunk have failed, I believe my body and mind is above that. So no alcohol induced stupor for me. Just the cold, harsh reality. And really, I'm not crying. Just thinking about it.

But I'm done. Now I'm gonna watch a funny show that makes you laugh despite whatever mood you're in. And I'm gonna while away the time until the fast is over. And maybe I'll put a coin into the tzedaka box, and give a thought or too to all the unfortunate people in the world. But that's all.

Happy fasting, everyone! Do one good thing today, and have in mind that this one thing may very well be the last one needed, the last 'brick in the bais hamikdash' that will help end this horrible golus, and bring Moshiach, not soon, not eventually, but right now!!!! Cuz I'm so sick of waiting!!!