Drama-free

You ask me how I'm doing. I give you the standard answer. 'Good, thank G-d.' To your question of 'What's up?' I reply 'Nothing much', which seems to be the acceptable response. There is a lull in the conversation. You ask me, 'So how are you, really?'

I'm good. Really, I'm good. Once upon a time I had so much to say, I needed advice on so many things. I believe that the best poetry is written out of sadness than of joy. Some people have extreme emotions and they cannot have a normal medium. I can be normal. But when I am normal, that means all is well. And when all is well, I don't need you anymore.

I am quiet for a time. You ask me 'What's up'. I am not ignoring you, I am actually busy working. I explain this to you. But more and more frequently these days, our conversations are filled with silence.

I think of all that I accomplished this year. It is funny. I set out goals for myself and I was not very optimistic about accomplishing them. I recently took a look at the paper where I wrote down my goals, and as it turns out- I have accomplished all of them, or some of them in part. And I don't feel triumphant. I am not jumping for joy or slapping myself on the back. Because I knew I could do it all along.

Life is good. It is. It is going in a good direction, and I made it for myself. I learned that not everything needs to be taken so seriously, not all my problems have to be aired, and that most of all, I can figure things out on my own. And I am so proud of that.

Sometimes we have to go through hard times to realize how strong we are. Tell me what you think is wrong with me and I can tell you all the things that are right with me. And I will make it. I know I will. I will become everything I dream of for myself. I will accomplish every goal I set out for myself. Because I can. I know I can. And I know that you know it too.

But I think this is goodbye. At least to that part of us. Drama. It is something I have no need for in my life, and it is all over B"H. The people who bring drama- you get rid of them. Live life simple and purely for the right reasons, not for anything or anyone else. I have rediscovered myself, and I remember me. I like me.

Give me my wings and let me fly. It is time.