Summer, smiles, and other stuff

Blogger is slow these days. Everything is slow these days. Summer just slows things down, makes you want to be lazy, and not do work. But what can you do when you have lots of work to do, and no one but you can get it done? That's right, you do it anyway.

Every time I open my gmail inbox, I have tons of mail. And before I start to feel liked, and popular, I skim down and all I see is, facebook facebook facebook. I kind of regret getting facebook again, if only because I get my hopes up about getting mail, and then there's really nothing there.

It is all a waiting game. I hate games, and I hate waiting even more. I hate miscommunication, and I hate long, drawn out conversations, that go no where. If you have something to say, then say it. If not, then keep quiet, and let me get on with life.

I just realized it is a fast day on Thursday. I should have known, but I didn't. Or I forgot. Either way. Fast days are hungry, melancholy, sad, confusing. I try to mourn, to feel something, but I never really do.

On the subject of death and dying. I think it is healthy to think about it. Speculate. Write down the things that scare you, your questions. Why not? Did you ever try to take an emotion, and put yourself into it? Take a charecter from a story, and try to feel like them, to be that charecter? It's called role play, and its healthy and helpful. Try it.

Wishing everyone a happy, healthy, fun fulfilling summer. With lots of clarity, chassidishkeit, good stuff, and success. And don't forget to smile, because a smile makes everything 10 times brighter.

P.S. I wrote a short story. Some of you may have already read it. But I am hesitant to post it here, because people are so harsh with comments. If you would like to read it, (and you should, cuz if it gets published, or when I become famous someday, believe me, you'll want to say that you knew me, and you saw it first.) Email me, or leave a comment here _______________.