Out of my depth

My head feels so light,
as air.

Am I going to faint?
I have never fainted in my life.
I think.

Breathing fast and shallow.
Is there no blood in my head?
Or too much?

I have no idea.
Did I eat anything today?
I can't remember.

I finally understand the term
'eyes bugging out of your  head'.
They feel like they might pop out.

Shuffeling here
there
and everywhere.

Confusion.
Talking, talking talking,
So many words.

Too much information.
I put my head down.
No I'm not an idiot.

Just trying to breath.
Overwhelming.
I pretend I know what is going on.

But I feel like I am floating.
My head feels like it is suffocating.
Light headed.

Headed towards the light?
Everything is far too bright.
Please can I just close my eyes....

Leaning against the wall
trying not to fall.
Want to sit down on the floor.

Did I eat anything today?
And all of this is just too much.
Too much.

Wrong bus,
totally lost,
strange neighborhood.

Weird people,
too many sounds,
too many sites.

Coming home,
wrung out dry.
Drained of energy.

Thinking that,
maybe
I made a big mistake.