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It's when
you curl
into
yourself.

When you smile
at the people around you.
But it doesn't quite reach
your eyes.

When you are so cold
under a million blankets.
And nothing can seem to
warm you.

When you are starving
but your stomach is full
of lead.
And you just can't eat.

It's like a fog
where you can't see clearly.
Everything is slightly blurred.
Hazy.

When you want to stay in the shower
curled up under the steam.
Absorbing the warmth.
And never leave.

When you need a hug.
And your own two arms
just can't seem
to hold you.