Go Inside

Ever tried to find the purpose of life? 42. The answer is always 42. (According to my father, the answer is always 'gravity'.)

It is hard to do a job when there seems to be no purpose to it. Or if the goal is 'money'. Yes, we need money to live. So should one work at a job for the sole purpose of making money? And then what? Would it not be better to do a job where you can make a real difference?

My aunt volunteers at a place called 'Shake a Leg'. It is an organization that teaches paraplegic people how to sail. The people who volunteer for Friendship Circle and work with children with special needs are making a real difference too.

Those jobs are voluntary. Why does it seem like the jobs which bring change and good feeling are always voluntary positions? I think I just answered my own question.

I've always had a problem with authority. My mother taught me to not be chuzpadik. I try. Or I get around it. I sailed through high school and seminary skipping class, doing what I wanted when I wanted, and still had a pretty decent relationship with my principals. I just like to do my own thing, I don't like having rules imposed upon me.

I hope one day to be self-employed and to be able to make a career out of what I love to do. Until then, I must suffer at the hands of bosses who tell me what to do. They want me to adopt their love for the business, their drive, their goals, their purpose. But what if I disagree with it, or if I find no purpose in it? Should I just 'get by', like all the other weary unhappy working class?

I've recently been studying philosophy. And what I learned is, if you question everything, you'll go insane. Should you stop asking? Leave things alone? Convince yourself that a job is a job and you don't need a purpose?

I never claimed to have all the answers. (Gravity!)