Deal again?

Yes please. Deal the cards again. There must have been some mistake.

No, these cannot be my cards. 'The hand that we were dealt.' No thank you. I don't accept it.

Why is it that just when things seem like they are going great- everything flips over. And I mean everything. All at once.

Okay, maybe not everything. But the essentials. The important things. It makes you stop and say, what now?

I hate it. It is so frustrating. I hate the feeling of not being in control. I hate that I can't do anything about another person's decision. I hate that I make plans, anticipate things, and they don't work out.

I hate saying, 'Well, it'll all work out.' Maybe it won't. Why must I always be positive? Why must I always console myself? What is wrong with wallowing and saying, 'This really and truly sucks'?

It sucks. I will not lie and say I'm happy. I will not pretend everything is 'just great'. I will not tell you that I am fine because that is what you want to hear.

No, it's not 'all good'.

Two steps forward, one step back. How many steps back can one take until they are just walking backwards?

Deal again?

Please. Because there must have been some mistake the first time around.