Deja who?

dé·jà vu

ˌdāZHä ˈvo͞o/

noun

1. a feeling of having already experienced the present situation.

Deja vu: I've been here before.

Or

Deja vu: I've seen this before.

Or

Deja vu: I've stalked him before.

I've definitely stalked him before.

The profile comes with no name, photo or identifying details. If you like it,  you email the administrator who sends you the full profile with all necessary details including name and photo. 

I liked it, I really liked the profile. So I sent away for the full expose, and waited merrily for the reply.

Deja vu: I've stalked him before. Why does his picture look so familiar? Oh right, I checked him out on Facebook. He must have commented on a friend of a friend's post, I thought he looked interesting and promptly tried to find out if he was married. We have 5 friends in common. He's friends with my brother. He rides a motorcycle.

BUT

My hopes fell. I read and reread the description of the person he is looking for, trying to match the adjectives to me. Am I intelligent? Sure. A pleasant person? I can be when I want to. Would I describe myself as compassionate and considerate? That depends, does he mean all the time? Am  I kind to people and strangers? All except the dumb ones. I hate dumb people. 

I pull his profile apart word for word, and I feel my confidence waver. He is too good looking, he comes from a "gezhe" (yichus) family, why would he want me, he probably wouldn't go for me. He lists himself as physically active and loves to try knew things. Sure, I can be too, with the right person. But I'm not that active at the moment.

One voice tells me, just go for it, have a shadchan email him to see if he's interested. But the other, more powerful voice just sits down and sighs, says "don't bother, I'm in no mood for more rejection right now".

And here the story ends.