I decided to start packing up my room tonight. I don't think I have a lot of stuff but I have lived here 4 years so I should get a head start. I am officially moving out in 2 weeks.
I realized I had a lot of books. Some are from school, some are 'self help' books, and some are novels I bought for pleasure. I do hang on to stuff, which I'm trying to work on. But books are a good thing to have around because if I haven't read them yet, I may get to them later. (Who am I kidding, I'll probably never get to them, but my choice of books will make me look smart.)
I've been getting advice from different people lately about what to do next in my life, and I still haven't decided. Some people think that just getting away will help 'clear my head' and I will come back refreshed and ready to jump back into life.
That's not the way I see it. I'm not getting away for a vacation. I will not have a job, apartment or life waiting for me when I get back. I have barely any responsibilities right now. Most of this is my choice. I don't know that I am necessarily making good choices for myself, but all I know is that I need to leave, to close the door on this chapter of my life and figure out what the next one will be.
For the past few years I've just been waiting for my future to come to me, and I'm so sick of waiting. So I'm taking charge.
If I lived in Park Slope I might put some books on the sidewalk with a 'free' sign. As it is, the only books I'm giving away are part 2 and 3 of the Hunger Games series. I bought them when they were really popular and I just had to read them.
If you are reading this and you are worried about me, don't be.
If you are reading this and you think you can offer advice: it is welcome.
However, this is my life, my choices and only I can make it or break it.
Are you moving to the dreaded "Heights"?
ReplyDeleteAs in Crown Heights? I'm moving out actually.
DeleteWhoops, I actually meant Washington Heights.
DeleteI don't even know why you're calling it dreaded. I've never been there. I'm not really moving anywhere right now.
DeleteI guess your stuff is going to stay in your parents' basement until you send for it? That's what we did . . . in hindsight, I wish I'd brought more with me. Too late now, though.
ReplyDeleteDo you already have a place in Florida? I don't have any advice other than what I wrote on your previous post.
But I do have a bracha for you: May you go with siyata diShmaya, may you make the right choices, and may you always be glad that you had the courage to pick up and start fresh.
I have a tentative plan: move stuff to patents basement. Road trip down to Florida. Spend 2 weeks there. Come back to N.Y.for grandparents visit. Then, have passport, will travel. We'll see where life takes me. Maybe to your neck of the woods. I actually emailed you, not sure you still use your old email address.
DeleteI think the idea of a 2 week road trip and then a visit with family, while you wait for your passport, is a good one. Makes use of the time and gives you some thinking space to sort things out. Would love to see you. :)
DeleteI have a passport. That comment was a joke. But I'm really undecided on where to go. I wanted to travel through Europe but unfortunately my friends just did it while I was stuck in school, and now that I'm free everyone is busy. Plus it'll probably cost more than I'm willing to spend. So a friend suggested Israel but I don't wanna just go for the sake of going and then wander aimlessly. Now I'm thinking to try for birthright in November but have nothing planned until then.
DeleteIt sounded serious and made sense. :D Bummer that you "missed the boat". You're probably right that it will cost, but I can't say for sure, because I've never done it. Also, you can go to classes in Ohr Chaya. The classes are free, they have a dorm that you pay a small amount for. Maybe check Janglo?
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