Turn that frown upside down

Tacky, I know.

I seem to always write when I have a cold, like "hey world, I feel like crap today, just thought I should let you know!". Not sure how you can get a cold in warm climate, but it happens.

Things haven't been going so well for me lately, or rather, I have let my control slip and things got into disarray. It is all how you look at it. Is my world falling apart, or am I just not holding it together strongly enough?

I'm part of a 'get fit' facebook group (who isn't?) The moderator is posting small exercises to do each day, to get people moving. Today it was simply, go outside, enjoy the beauty. So I did.

First, I went running. It was raining all morning, so I thought, how appropriate, I will run in the rain like in all romantic movies. But by the time I got dressed and went outside it had stopped raining. It was still nice and breezy, and I had a good run/jog/walk. There was a moment there when the wind picked up and I was running, it felt like I was controlling it.

I lit the menorah and enjoyed some chanuka songs.

Then, I went to an awesome outdoor free Avraham Fried concert, did I mention free? The music was so beautiful, and like I've heard mentioned before, Avraham Fried is such an aidel yiddishe guy, it's a pleasure to watch him sing. I felt like, hey there's Avremel Friedman, I see him all the time in Crown Heights, we're practically neighbors. It was nice to see tons of Jews in one place.

Then, I sat around drinking tea feeling sick and sorry for myself. But that's not the end, my friends.

My sister texted me for my address, and I'm pretty sure she's gonna send me chanuka cookies. Then we texted back and forth for like 45 minutes, and she was being really nice and supportive about what I'm going through. Which is, as my mom would put it, 'a miracle' because we used to hate each other and could barely say anything without throwing out nasty words. So ya, I guess family is not that bad.

All in all, I think things are looking up. And I attribute that to my attitude and my mindset, since nothing really changed since yesterday. But I feel different. More hopeful, more positive, like I actually want to move forward, and instead of waiting for things to fall into place, I will actively take the reins and make it happen.